What I wanna say... to him.

Hey everyone...
Have you ever feel so frustrated with someone that you like (and you know that someone likes you too!)? Have you ever feel so annoyed when that someone just tease you about some other guys constantly?
Well I kinda am in that kind of position... And I kinda want to confront him and say, "Man up! Stop it!", but of course, it's impossible. So I imagined what I would write to him if I do write him a letter abt this.
This is how it goes...

Hi N,

How are you? I hope your preparation for exams is ok. I know it's weird, me writing you a letter like this when we talk everyday, so I'm just gonna ask you straight to the point. I'm confused, N. You know, at first I didn't think of you this much. Hey, we don't even talk for the whole first semester you are here! I only see you once in a while. Then this semester... We start talking to each other so much. First, FB. Then after few weeks, you ask for my msn. I felt one strange feeling grows inside me everytime we talk. Never in million years have I ever imagined us being close like this.

You don't know how much you've turned my life upside down, do you? Let me tell you something. I've been in love with this guy in my high school (even after we graduated) for like, 5-6 years. I was stupidly in love with him. Was. Even a guy who is soo my type, soo compatible with me in so many ways (not all though), he can't take that guy's place in my heart. Then when we (me & you, N) got close in the beginning, I was scared. I don't want to hurt you. I thought, OK girl, let N go. Don't go through all the drama again.

Then I realised... I can't let you go. Saying I'm shocked is the understatement of the year. It's much more beyond that. I feel like shouting to the world, I overcome it! I'm not in love with that high school guy anymore!
But then, I'm scared, N. You can make me move on from that stupid high school crush. I literally feel like my whole world will crumble if you do leave me. I realised I'm in too deep, too late.

I don't want to be over confident, N... But you keep dropping hints to me. My friends... They practically got frustrated with me not agreeing you liking me in that way. So then I said, Ok, you mighttt have feelings for me.

But N... Why don't you move? And why... why do you keep teasing me about some guys? It's frustrating. I don't even tease you abt that girl anymore.

You know, some of my friends thought you're playing dumb and testing me. So if you are... Please tell me what you want me to do?

I'm tired, N. I feel that my feelings for you are fading away. So if you want me, be fast. Otherwise, I'll be gone before you know it.

Hello!

Hey everyone!
Basically I just started blogging (I know, so late huh? >.<)...
Love pink, writing, baking, knitting, singing bla bla bla...
I'm writing my first novel now... I kinda started a few novels before but then all crashed n burned when writer block came n my old laptop kinda broke and have to be reformatted... T.T
I'm thinking of posting like excerpts of the chapters here, but it's gonna be in bahasa indonesia (I'm indonesian!)...
So stay tuned...!